Ponderings of an Inquisitor

11.30.2005

One last hurrah...

Well, today's probably the last day I'll be on the internet until I get to Miami. I leave for Guatemala on Saturday and I'm busy the rest of the days till then. Today has had it's ups and downs and I'm glad to be at the end of it. I can't wait to see everyone and talk to them... If I haven't emailed you back, just wait till I see you. :) I love each and every one of my friends and family so very much and I'm so grateful for your incredible support on this journey. This has been the most challenging yet incredible 3 months of my life and I hope this sets a precedent of what will be an amazing adventure throughout. I can't say how much I love you - you each know who you are... Until we talk again, think sweet thoughts, give lots of hugs to people and be an admirable person.

Ciao!

Today we took our final exam on the business concentration. In the first question, we had to write a letter about the kind of company we wanted to work for, that included the explanation of "Kingdom Principles." In the second, we were asked to write an article for the school newspaper, explaining how International Businesses can follow Kingdom principles... Here you go...

Dear Mr. So-and-so,

I just finished a semester studying in Costa Rica in a Christian semester abroad program called LASP (Latin American Studies Program) sponsored by the Christian Coalition for Universities and Colleges. I spent several weeks studying different aspects of the cultural, economy and history of Latin America and focused our last 5 weeks on intensely studying International business and writing a marketing research tool on fundraising for a non-profit company, Red Viva. During those 5 weeks, I’ve been able to observe several different ways that companies are being used to further social justice, including social entrepreneurship, corporate social responsibility, fair trade, business as mission, etc. I’ve had the opportunity to really study what the Kingdom of God is on earth and have come to realize that I’d like to work for a company who takes measures to promote God’s principles of love, justice and caring for peoples’ needs. Allow me to explain further.

In the article, “What’s Your Price? 10 Principles for Saving the Corporate Soul,” the author suggests 10 principles to follow that are not only moral, effective business practices, but also practices that promote Kingdom principles. In short, the author recommends:

1. Valuing employees as more than capital,
2. Being involved in developing the surrounding community of the business,
3. Ensuring product safety,
4. Respecting and helping preserve the environment,
5. Promoting and maintain diversity in top management,
6. Respecting workers’ human rights,
7. Allowing for feedback and integrity in the company, without fear of losing jobs
8. Protecting privacy of workers, suppliers and customers,
9. Communicating transparently about your product and following through on that communication,
10. And finally, not producing life-threatening products

The author sites several examples of companies that have succeeded using these principles, as well as several examples of companies who have failed when ignoring them.

Obviously, these principles are excellent business practices, but take an extra dose of effort on the company’s part. It seems to be an extremely difficult jump for many companies to consider employees as more than assets and expenses. Helping to develop the surrounding community is what charities do. Ensuring product safety is thought about if the cost of fighting lawsuits exceeds the cost of having a safe product. Being involved in the environment, having diversity in management, respecting workers’ rights, allowing for feedback, protecting privacy, and being honest about your product seems to only be thought about if fines are involved. Creating life-threatening products such as tobacco and arms is hardly considered unethical these days. What seems to be driving most companies today is the bottom line – how much is my profit and what do I need to do to maintain, if not increase it? There are several examples of integrity and moral values being tossed aside in the name of profit, as in the case of Enron, Dole Fruit, The Gap, Nike and many more.
Clearly, not all companies have thrown out every sense of morality. Some companies aim for higher moral standards than others and some profit from these higher morals while others swallow the cost of integrity. One of our guest speakers, Chris, from Pura Vida coffee, discussed the fact that no one will pay you to have integrity or maintain moral values. However, while these values are invaluable, they’re costing many businesses their profits.

Some companies are tight for profits, but are exemplifying practices that build Kingdom principles, maintain integrity, and really strive for excellence in the market. For example, one of the site visits we took was to observe a highly successful chicken farm called “Roblealto.” Their purpose was to do excellent business of producing more and more chickens and using the majority of their profits to sponsor a home that takes care of at-risk children – everything from food and a house to education and psychological counseling. Another company, “Pura Vida Coffee” uses 100% of the profits of their organic, fair trade coffee to sponsor community development in the poorest neighborhoods of Costa Rica. In a taste test against Starbucks in 2000, Pura Vida Coffee was rated higher than Starbucks! This means that the company is still striving for excellence, but their mission is to achieve this excellence for the purpose of investing in the development of children’s minds and futures. These business are one step ahead of the normal non-profit organizations whose main focus is collecting money from donors and using that to help people, like what we researched for the Red Viva marketing tool. Roblealto and Pura Vida Coffee are using marketing strategies to multiply their funds in order to develop more and more communities.

In an article we read, “Success to Significance,” the author points out that this drive for money and profits will soon become unattractive to many prosperous people, if it hasn’t already. The author points out that money simply doesn’t bring happiness in the long run because it can’t cure the inner desire for significance in this world. Not only this author, but many people support this idea that money can’t buy you happiness. In fact, when researching donors for our Red Viva project, I found that the newly-rich Asian population is starting to get tired of simply having money and so they are searching for ways to give their money to others – to leave this life with more than success… with significance.

As you already know, the money that companies are working so hard to attain will soon be short-lived for many – especially for me. As a child of God who admires Jesus as one of the most incredible men who walked the earth, I’d prefer to work for a company who promotes principles that Jesus spoke of when speaking of the Kingdom of God. I’d like to work for a company who values people as creations, and because of that, respects their rights, ensures their safety, protects their privacy, and tries to create products that better peoples’ lives instead of ruins them. I’d like to work for a who values justice outside of their company by preserving the environment and developing the community around them. And finally, I’d like to work for a company who values integrity by allowing for accountability to eliminate ethical practices and represents their product or service as what it really is.
I want my life to be about promoting love and justice and empowering other people to do so as well. Since a majority of my life will be working, I’d like the company I work for to have similar priorities of promoting Kingdom principles. If you know of any company that exemplifies or is clearly working towards these priorities, I would love to speak with them about future employment.

Thank you so much for your time,
Vanessa Brettell

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ESSAY TWO:



The Biolan


“The mighty are not only political nations and empires
but economic manipulators of other peoples’ destinies.”
-Brown


In our sheltered bubble of tri-weekly chapels, dollar theaters and bonzookie, we Biola students rarely take a second to consider the outside world. Yes, of course we are mission-focused and of course we’re working hard to learn doctrine in order to have great, theoretical, apologetics-based discussions about the theology of Paul. However, when was the last time we sat down and learned from someone other than a professor, Sunday school teacher or chapel speaker? It seems to me that many people in America, and especially in the mission-focused church have lost sight of what Jesus did – we’ve accepted half of the gospel for so long that it seems like it’s the only truth out there. We’ve been taught for so long that being a Christian was about letting other people know about Jesus and how he commands us to act. So we take classes on doctrine, spiritual formation and cross-cultural communication in order to learn how to communicate to others and fulfill “the great commission.” But we forgot that Jesus first listened and observed peoples’ needs before he felt the need to tell them about the gospel – about the Kingdom of God. This half-gospel has steered us in a direction that has forgotten the second part of the greatest commandment – loving others as we love ourselves. Because we’re so concerned about making ourselves holy and getting the right tactics down to preach at people, we’ve forgotten to take care of others! We’ve forgotten justice.

Worldwide, people are suffering from malnutrition, from worker abuse, from easily curable diseases and from lack of shelter – essentially, people worldwide are suffering from poverty. In Nicaragua, there are currently people protesting against Del Monte because the pesticides used to keep our bananas clean and growing healthily (which have long been outlawed in the States) have made the workers infertile, desperately sick and many have already died. Although the world court has mandated that Del Monte pay these workers compensation (as if money could compensate for the ruined quality of life), Del Monte has refused and continues to allow workers to suffer – many suggest they’re allowing the protestors to die off. Do we know about this injustice? Who’d you buy your last banana from? Do you even know where Nicaragua is located?

While studying abroad in Costa Rica, I visited several plantations – coffee plantations, banana plantations and pineapple plantations. As seen at these visits, as well as read in news articles, these pineapple plantations are using chemicals that poison community water, give children diseases such as frequent stomach aches and bacteria growing on their faces, and attracts swarms of blood-sucking flies that are killing off cattle. As if this weren’t bad enough, those who work on the pineapple plantation are poorly treated as well. The owners pay their workers minimum wages without overtime and set up their hiring and re-hiring so that they end up paying only half of the required health insurance. An article we read talked about how workers are suffering worldwide because of poor decisions made by the rich. The rich never seem to suffer from their actions – which explains why they never seem to be motivated to change them. If we want cheap prices, we must realize that these cheap prices come at the expense of peoples’ livelihood – in plantations, sweat shops, and production facilities worldwide.

I don’t believe that the problem with most Biola students is that they knowingly buy things from companies that make people suffer. After all, we are children of God, aspiring to live out Kingdom principles. What you must realize is that Kingdom principles and the principles of the Market are entirely contrary. While the Market values money, fame, and efficiency, the Kingdom of God values justice, love, and caring for others’ needs. While the Market views success as being the most profitable company among their competition, the Kingdom of God views success as putting others’ needs before your own. Everyone is subject to the market – there’s no way of escaping it. The market is ‘the world’ that Jesus is referring to when He tells us to be ‘in the world but not of it.’ Whether you are someone who benefits from the market, like the majority of U.S. citizens, or you are someone who drives it through philanthropy, like many Nicaraguan citizens, you are part of the Market. In Great Expectations, where the above quote comes from, Brown points out that to know God is to do justice. If we are to live as children of God, promoting His Kingdom principles, it is essential that our lives be the epitome of justice. This, my friends, is the other half of the gospel.

Jesus most definitely came to save us from the punishment of our sins and to cover our “tuition” into heaven. However, Jesus’ main purpose for coming was to share the gospel of the Kingdom of God – He came to teach us how to live in this world but not of it. He taught us to love mercy, do justice, treat others like we want to be treated, feed the hungry, heal the sick, love the unloved, hug the unhugged, and share by our actions what the gospel is. Then he wants us to disciple others on how to live this life that embodies Kingdom of God principles – Jesus told us that not only is the Kingdom of Heaven something we hope for, it is also something that is within us. It is our responsibility as students to learn of this Kingdom, to learn of others’ needs and to ACT to fix the injustices that people worldwide are facing.

As business students (and many others who will end up in business) enter into working for international business (meaning at least some part of their supply chain or customers are international), they must know what a business that follows Kingdom principles should look like. While I suggest you read more than this, one approach is to work for or create a Great Commission Company. Great Commission Companies have holistic missions – they take care of both physical and spiritual needs, and they’re not even a charity! A great commission company is a profit-producing company managed by excellent Kingdom professionals that focus on social responsibility, making alliances to develop local churches, and seeking the least-evangelized and least-developed areas to help develop.

International businesses that act as Great Commission Companies understand the complete gospel of telling about Christ and taking care of peoples’ needs. They create profit, as do all companies, because as Don Antonio stated, profit is as essential for a company as breathing is for a person. Of course you do it, but it’s a means – not an end. According to the article, “What’s Your Price?” GCCs focus on the ends of human development, environmental preservation, and salvation of souls. They take a step further in business, seeing it to be used as an effective tool for spreading the gospel. This approach is what Jesus means by living ‘in the world but not of it.’ GCCs are professional, do excellent work and understand the concepts of the market that are essential to their success. However, the difference is that their priorities are set on following Jesus’ concepts of justice, love and mercy regardless of the effects to the bottom line.

As we graduate and head on to new jobs, or as you’re here at Biola, seeking some extra money to pay your grocery bills, try to take into consideration working for a company with a higher mission than profit, or at the very least, try to become aware of those companies that are poorly treating their workers and our environment and use your money to show them your principles. Support companies who take their Christianity to the next level in their businesses by sharing and living out the gospel of the Kingdom of God.

Happy Belated Birthday!!!

Happy Birthday to You, Happy Birthday to You, Happy Birthday dear ERICA.... Happy Birthday to You!!!

Here are your pretend presents from afar: cake, some flowers, and some cute stuff! Hope you like them all! :) haha

Ciao, cariña!

11.27.2005

Café Britt, Roblealto & Cafta March

Well, you already heard my big revelation on the coffee place excursion, but here´s some pics to go with that... It really was interesting and I learned a lot about coffee and how to properly drink it...

http://www.kodakgallery.com/I.jsp?c=w8mm1o5.180nk09d&x=0&y=-20l102

Another one of our site visits was at a place called Roblealto. Roblealto is a chicken farm that uses it´s profits to support a home for at-risk children (those whose parents are abusive or have serious mental problems). It´s awesome because they really have a wholistic care from what I can see - they have a school, a home, food and psychology visits that each kid can take advantage of. It really made me think about the idea of "business as mission" where you do business excellently so that other people can be taken care of. If I ever had a business, I think that´s what I would like to do. :)

After Roblealto, we headed back to San Jose and stepped into an anti-CAFTA march. They really pulled out the stops with a grim reaper and music and dancing and drums and everything. ICE, the state-sponsored phone service here, was obviously very prominent in the parade... It´s really neat to have studied enough about economy, history and culture to actually understand what´s going on in San Jose on a day to day basis... fun times.

Anyways, here´s some pics of Roblealto & CAFTA:

http://www.kodakgallery.com/I.jsp?c=w8mm1o5.98lmm2p&x=0&y=-joxfjf

Rafting Weekend

A couple weeks ago, the International Business Concentration (IBC) group went rafting and then hung out in Limón overnight till our conferencia the next day at a pineapple plantation. This concentration seems to be much more balanced than core seminar as far as seeing peoples´perspectives on things.

After white water rafting (which was absolutely INCREDIBLE and I wish I could do it all the time), we chillaxed a hotel and watched Michael Jackson videos and ate food...

The next day, we went to a lady´s house who´s fighting against the pineapple plantation expansion because the chemicals needed for the expansion are giving the people around the plantations diseases and essentially poisoning everyone slowly and painfully. Children often have fungi growing in patches on their skin or have stomach problems from intaking so many fumes from the chemicals. The lady explained that she´s not against farming and pineapple plantations, she´s simply against abusing the lack of regulation and using chemicals that have been outlawed in the States for decades because of how hazardous they are. Not only that, pineapple plantations generally have a horrible reputation for treating their workers poorly. For example, Costa Rican law says that you have to start paying benefits to workers after they work for 3 months. So what they often do is hire every 6 months, which means two things: 1) they only have to pay 3 months worth of benefits, and 2) people can never gain seniority or pay upgrades because, officially, they´ve only worked there for 6 months tops (even though they likely have been working there 7 or 8 years)... Hmmmm...

Then, we went to a pineapple plantation to watch the process of how pineapples are chosen and sent to different places. He explained how they chose pineapples for certain places to go to and how hiring every 6 months allows him to not hire too many or too few workers for current demand. He didn´t really mention anything about the chemicals... But then he was super generous and fed us all like 15 pineapples that were warm from the sun and soooooo good.

Having taken both perspectives in, I can understand them both, but I think that it´s still ultimately hurting quite a few more people than it´s helping, so the chemicals need to be improved. I wonder when we´re gonna start taking the world court seriously so that we can at least attempt to hold multi-national firms accountable to protecting workers worldwide... hmmmm

If you want to see pics of that, click here:

http://www.kodakgallery.com/I.jsp?c=w8mm1o5.9blx5ap&x=0&y=-7un7vq

Making Cookies

So... for Ximena´s fifth birthday, I decided it´d be super fun to make chocolate chip cookies. She was super excited about it, as were the rest of us. I´ve not tasted anything in Costa Rica that comes close to chocolate chip cookies, so it was definitely a new experience. Everyone had a great time baking them and eating them! They´re so addicting...mmmmmmmm... They were quickly gobbled up within the next few days! The funniest part about it is that we had some people deliver some new couches while we were baking, so we had them come in and have some cookies and something to drink. We chatted for about 15 minutes with them and they went on their way... It was super funny to me because I can´t imagine ever doing something like that in the States... just indicative of the unified culture here. Oh... how I love Costa Rica. :)

Anyways, here are some pics of the evening:

http://www.kodakgallery.com/I.jsp?c=w8mm1o5.v4n54i9&x=0&y=rozhw

11.24.2005

Brain Goo

So... my brain has been officially exhausted. Not only am I wondering about super big important stuff like the purpose of life and what´s right and wrong and what I want to make my life about... I´m also group-writing a 90 page paper on the donor market, fundraising techniques, possible grant givers and a 3-year fundraising plan for Red Viva.

Everything would be going great, and really it is... if it weren´t for annoying technology. I worked for an hour and a half today on getting our conclusions organized and supported only to have my computer freeze up when I tried to save them. I have an extremely understanding group and they super-encouraged me but I´m super frustrated. And of course, there´s this weird sickness in me that wants to just start over and replicate all the work I lost - but I´m out of time! Grrr... I guess it´s just another lesson in being out of control. Life isn´t perfect and there´s always wrenches. How we react to those wrenches is what shows our character. I can only pray that my character would be reflecting a good heart. I was writing in my journal about what a good heart my look like... here´s some thoughts from that... I´ve officially decided you´ll all be subject to more of my journey... haha...

"Knowing God is doing justice. An action - not just an abstract idea. Only those who do the will of God will enter into the Kingdom of Heaven. So the way you get to heaven is necessarily through Jesus´sacrifice to cover our injustices, but even if you know Jesus and don´t do justice, no dice. That´s why that one verse talks about how even the demons know who Jesus is and shudder - but they´re not part of the Kingdom of God because they don´t practice Justice...?? Hmmm..."

"Second thought - God is love and doing His 'will' is doing justice - caring for peoples' needs. You can do justice without love and it generally comes off as arrogant and unnecessary. But you can´t have love without justice because love provokes justice - to love is to do justice. To care for the needs of others..."

Matthew 22:36-39
Rich Young Ruler: "Teacher, which is the greatest commandment in the Law?"

Jesus replied: "Love the Lord your God with all your heart and with all your soul and with all your mind. This is the first and greatest commandment. And the second is like it: Love your neighbor as yourself. All the Law and the Prophets hang on these two commandments."


"If all I´m here for is to love God and love others, I can do that in so many ways. I can love God with my heart by allowing Him to shape my emotions and reactions to things - having compassion for those who suffer, having mercy for those who struggle, having strength for those who need courage. I can love God with my mind by filling it with His words and good things. I can educate myself on injustices and can brainstorm solutions to those injustices. I can love Him with my soul by not getting caught up with the aspirations of this world like money, status and maybe even freedom of speech? I wonder what values I take for granted as being more important than justice... Is freedom of speech more important to me than caring for the basic needs of my neighbor?

"I can love my neighbor as myself by caring for their needs and seeking to be their neighbor - not waiting for them to approach me for help. How could I do that right now? What does Jesus say the most important needs are? Does he? Jesus came to heal the sick, humanize the outcasts, empower the unexpected to be leaders, speak out against hypocrisy and poor treatment (because of arrogance) of others... He waved a banner of opportunity to those who´d been easily tossed aside - He saw the potential that no one else saw. He also saw the hypocrisy and evil in the religious leaders that many chose to ignore. So essentially, Jesus saw the hearts of everyone. I should just leave judging peoples' hearts to Christ and simply follow His example of justice and loving."

Really, the only thing I need to judge are what people teach me to believe. I should be open-minded but take everything with a grain of salt. Everyone believes things for a reason... Most actions are rational... you just have to find the rationale behind them. Anyways, so I think that with my life, I´m going to be loving by doing justice which is caring for other peoples´needs. I want to help heal the sick, humanize the outcast, empower the unexpected to be leaders, and speak out against hypocrisy and poor treatment of others. At least... that's what I want for now... ask me after Guatemala! Ha! ;)

11.16.2005

So this is what rich people do...

I have to face the facts… I’m rich. I have a warm house. I have a full stomach. I get to eat fun things like ice cream and coffee. I get a warm bed when I get home. I get to take a shower every day. I get to sleep for at least 7 hours every night. I get to travel to other countries. I get to spend money on things like presents for other people, snacks on a road trip or zip-lining in the canopy of the rainforest. I have ridiculous amounts of clothes. I have medicine available. I have an international health insurance that covers everything from a cold to a heart-attack. I can read, write and think critically. I can decide what I think or where I want to live or what I want to do with the rest of my life. Shoot, I can decide which shampoo I want to buy. I can even walk into a store and pay $6 for a cup of pretty coffee and a raspberry scone… I could do that once a week if I wanted to… I could go on for days about how rich I am… it’s just funny that I always thought of myself as “middle class”. I had no idea.

I’ve been researching donors for the past 2 weeks and have been, once again, disappointed. Did you know that donors in the States give an average of 2% of their income at best? Or that the best statistic for church giving is 5% of income? So much for 10% tithe, huh? Did you further know that poorer people (those who make $15,000 or less a year) give a far higher percentage of their income (26%) than the middle class? Also, did you know that the U.S. could’ve given billions more to others without changing their standard of living?

Obviously, this is 2 weeks of researching other peoples’ research, so take it as it is… but as far as I can see, I’m bummed. One of the authors argued that generosity was more important to people than freedom, but I beg to differ. I think that generosity is a huge part of American culture – generosity as we know it, that is. I think my definition of generosity was so watered down that I thought of it as giving the excess of my money after I’d bought the Starbucks and the new CD I wanted and that shirt I just had to have (because my other 30 didn’t suffice).

I’m not saying I was an absolutely horrible person, so please don’t feel the need to make me feel better. I’m just saying that seeing true generosity has challenged my definition of what generosity and hospitality means. When Jesus talks about giving your brother a second coat if he takes one, I understand it a little better now. I was thinking about the generosity of the family in Nicaragua – of the probably 5 or 6 shirts my grandpa there owned, he gave me one of them. I’m so humbled and ashamed at my lack of understanding – of what life is really about. They gave without expecting anything in return… what incredible people.

That brings my thoughts to today… I’m officially scarred for life, I’ve decided. We went to take a tour at Café Britt, a coffee place that sells organic coffee that’s supposed to be pretty amazing. We were there with a bunch of other tourists, learning about the coffee beans and the coffee making process. Then we all sat down to eat INCREDIBLE food – such delicate flavors and incredible care in the preparation. Then it hit me. This is what rich people do. We learn about things and eat good food and chat and have fun together. We leave the food on our plates that we just don’t care for – sometimes more than some eat in one day. I couldn’t help thinking about the starving people all over the world – or the ones who die from malnutrition. Or the prostitutes worldwide who sacrifice their bodies to eat the next day and to provide food for their families. They didn’t choose that life. They didn’t just wake up one day and say, “hey! I know! I think I’ll go starve myself to death for the hell of it… I know that if I’d just work harder at things I could really be successful in the world, but I’d prefer to sit here on my ass and be lazy. After all, the cup of rice I eat each week is free, right?” No, I don’t think so.

I was talking to my friend, Ryan, about it… and we just can’t figure out what to do with that. Do I go live a life of poverty so that I can understand it more and at least not be counted with those whose opportunities come at the cost of exploiting others? I don’t think that’d be a horrible idea, but it still wouldn’t do much. Why do I get to be sitting here, airing my opinions on my very limited knowledge of poverty while they shiver each night, hoping to die soon so they don’t have to pay attention to the gnawing pain in their stomachs? They have no voice… and so many people are trying to give them a voice… but what can I do? I can’t save the world… I can’t be the voice for India, China, Vietnam, Iraq, the Sudan, Brazil, the Bris-Bris, the Mexicans and the U.S. crack babies. But I know that I can do something because I’ve seen people change the world.

I’ve seen people change the world mostly through love. But I’ve also seen people live an existence of just loving their families and those close to them and enjoying their long lives… why do I feel that I just can’t do that? I don’t feel like I have the privilege of living an incredible life of opportunity when there are so many that suffer.

I wouldn’t trade these thoughts for the world. Something Ryan said was that we should never get to a place where sitting in front of abundance doesn’t hurt us just a little. We should never get so numb to others’ pain that we simply go through life and forget what’s going on around us just because it doesn’t immediately affect us…

I went white-water rafting on Sunday and had an incredible time – I’ll remember it forever and I hope to do it again. At the same time, I couldn’t help thinking… I wonder if Saira would’ve liked to do this. Saira was a little girl I hung out with in Mexico, who’s Mom died of cancer after having 3 children. Saira should be about 14 by now…

I’m not entirely sure what to do with all this… If anyone’s ever read Plato’s analogy of the Cave, that’s how I feel right now. I keep getting closer and closer to reality, but things are still very fuzzy at the moment. Maybe heaven’s where things get clearer?

Speaking of heaven, I’ve been thinking about Jesus a lot lately, purely from the perspective that he was a man. Yes, of course I believe He was God, but besides that point, he was a good man. If you’ve never read the gospels (Matthew, Mark, Luke and John), I really suggest at least reading that part of the Bible. And I suggest reading them in chronological order, cause it keeps the stories from getting super confusing. Whether you believe he’s the son of God or not, he was so awesome. He just loved people.

He saw beyond what I can see – he saw peoples’ potential, not their failures. He taught people to treat others like they’d want to be treated. He cared more about the janitor cleaning Carnegie Hall than about Mr. Carnegie himself. He hung out more with the dish-washers than he did with Emeril Lagassi. He fought for justice. He spread truth. He oozed with compassion.

It sounds cliché, growing up in church and everything, but I’d really like to sit down and drink some coffee with Jesus. I’d really like to just soak up all that wisdom he had – all that patience with people who didn’t understand. All that courage to speak out against corruption and abuse. What an incredible man. I think that He was probably most effective because he wasn't afraid to lose his life. He knew He was gonna die anyways, so why freak out about people who might want to kill him?

I feel like we’re always taught about this nice little Jesus who loved everyone equally and died on the cross for our sins. The end. But you know what? He was pretty fiesty! He picked a fight with the Pharisees – essentially, the Senators of Jesus’ time, I think. They didn’t just kill him because they were following a plan so that Jesus could rise from the dead. Sure, God had a plan, but it was logical. Jesus told the political powers that they were like white-washed tombs. I guess the best analogy for us would be like coffee cups that have only been washed on the outside for the last 10 years. The followed all the “rules” about what to eat and what to wear and where to stand (what people could see) but were dirty, greedy and power-hungry on the inside. Jesus fought against this hypocrisy.

And Jesus taught about the Kingdom of God… That’s the gospel! It’s not that there’s good news and bad news – bad news, we’re goin’ to hell and good news, Jesus saved us. That’s like saying the purpose of life is to breathe and die. Well, yeah, breathing’s important… but there’s so much more to life than breathing and then not. Yeah, Jesus’ death on the cross is important, but there’s so much more to the gospel than that! I guess my frustration is that, if the kingdom of God is so super important to Jesus, why don’t we spend more time learning about it in church?

And how come I never got taught that Jesus was a snotty-nosed little poor boy whose step-dad worked construction? Why is it that we don’t think of Mary and Jesus playing hide-and-go-seek? Why is it that we forget that Jesus’ first recorded miracle was turning water into the best-tasting wine to enjoy the party? How come Jesus always has to be so abstract and boring? What is so blasphemous about making him be a real human being? Sure, he was God. And sure, he was an incredible man who I can only pray to emulate… but I bet he had smile wrinkles. I bet his mom told him stories at bedtime when he was little. I bet he had doubts and questions about life, even though he technically knew all the answers. I bet he had mud wars with his brothers and sisters. I bet he built forts in the rocks… Or maybe he even skinned his knee and cried. I know he loved people – I know he went to dinner and chillaxed with some “skanky hoars” and some creepy politicians. Interesting, huh? Why’d it take me so long to see that?

I dunno… I have so many thoughts – these are the tip of a very big iceberg. I’m a little nervous to come home cause I know how much my mindset has changed. I still cling to scripture and pray my heart out, because that’s the only thing that stays true for me, no matter what I learn. Maybe it’s cause I can’t handle losing anything else I hold so dear. Or maybe I just super-admire this incredible man who loved so much without expecting anything in return but more love.

Another one of the things I’m clinging to is what my friend Mindy said – that the point of life is the journey. In my journey I’m learning, I’m making mistakes and I’m doing some things right. I’ve realized that that’s what we’re all doing. We’re all on a journey, searching for truth and purpose…

For the moment, I want my life to be characterized by love, integrity, justice and compassion. I want to give a voice to those who don’t have one. I want to come home with more than just a paycheck – with the knowledge that my work that day made the world a better place. And maybe I’ll only affect 3 or 4 people. Maybe I won’t change the world and make people understand environmental issues, human rights issues and about what love is. Maybe I’ll never totally understand those things. But I’m gonna take a stab at giving my “two cents” in the right direction. At least those 3 or 4 people will live in peace. And maybe those 3 or 4 people will help 3 or 4 other people, until we finally live in a world where people know what love means.

My dream for the world is that we’d live in constant humility, learning from each other and wanting the best for each other. That we’d love like Jesus did – not just loving people who do good to us, but loving people who hurt our feelings, piss us off, steal from us or hurt our family. That we’d love like Mother Theresa did – investing time in those whose time is short – touching and stroking those whose skin is covered in puss-filled wounds. That we’d fight like Martin Luther King did – with peace and courage and persistence. That’d we’d never give up doing what’s right for the sake of convenience or “development”. That’d we’d hold those with power accountable for using their power for good and not for evil. That’d we’d never forget to look at the sunset or the pretty flowers on our way to the bus or the way we can see our breath when it’s cold. That we’d be fascinated by the incredible beauty of the world around us and it’s beings. That’d we’d respect the earth we don’t deserve to enjoy…

Those are my dreams… for now. Again, it’s just the tip of the iceberg – they’re my raw feelings, scribbled down in a moment of passion and thoughtfulness. They’re not totally coherent and nothing that’ll get published in a book, but they’re a reflection of my 21-year-old mind, figuring out what I’m here for… In my journey, my ideas will always be changing, but I hope those changes will only lead me closer and closer to Jesus’ love, passion, truth and wisdom… Just like Jesus was a good man, I want to look back and say that I was a good woman.


Here’s part of what the gospel is about (aka: here’s what Jesus says about the Kingdom of God):

“Blessed are you who are poor, for yours is the kingdom of God.” Luke 6:20

“After this, Jesus traveled about from one town and village to another, proclaiming the good news of the kingdom of God.” Luke 8:1

“I tell you the truth: Among those born of women there has not risen anyone greater than John the Baptist; yet he who is least in the kingdom of heaven is greater than he.” Matthew 11:11

“Again he [Jesus] said, ‘What shall we say the kingdom of God is like, or what parable shall we use to describe it? It is like a mustard seed, which is the smallest seed you plant in the ground. Yet when planted, it grows and becomes the largest of all garden plants, with such big branches that the birds of the air can perch in its shade.’” Mark 4:30-32, Matthew 13:31-32

“The kingdom of heaven is like a merchant looking for fine pearls. When he found one of great value, he went away and sold everything he had and bought it.” Matthew 13:45-46

“Jesus went through all the towns and villages, teaching in their synagogues, preaching the good news of the kingdom and healing every disease and sickness.” Matthew 9:35

These are just tidbits... what does everyone else think?

11.15.2005

Happy 25th Anniversary!!!

Yes, folks. My parents have officially been married for the last 25 years as of today. Pretty incredible, eh? I´m so proud of them... I know it hasn´t always been wonderful - I´ve definitely been a witness to some rough times. Married people are silly together, fight together, flirt together and share together. Marriages are never perfect, but I believe that my parents have done an awesome job choosing to love each other in spite of their differences.

When my parents got married, my dad was from the East Coast and my mom was from California. My mom cooked casseroles and my dad cooked steak. My mom liked Winnie-the-Pooh cartoons and my dad liked the Godfather. My dad used his money to play horses and my mom bought books to read. My mom (apparently) was timid and soft-spoken and my dad was loud and charismatic. Obviously, opposites attracted and my parents are the most incredible companions - they couldn´t live without each other if they tried...

I can only hope that 25 years down the line, I´ll have made some mistakes and learned from them and will have chosen to keep loving my husband as my parents have loved each other. They make a great team and I´m ridiculously blessed. Thanks mom and dad for blessing me... I love you both. Congrats!

11.12.2005

Even More!

So, I´m catching up on stuff... here´s a couple more albums:

We went to the canopy and it was SOOO amazing!! We got to zip-line on 20 different platforms and we had sooo much fun! I was super excited cause Kalia got to come with me too!!! Here´s some pics: (Just click on the link)

http://www.kodakgallery.com/I.jsp?c=w8mm1o5.qq7uzkp&x=0&y=-7kxj8i

Here´s some more pictures of random stuff... Just around Guadalupe (where I live in Costa Rica)...

http://www.kodakgallery.com/I.jsp?c=w8mm1o5.nbmco61&x=0&y=f60tp6

Let me know if you have any problems accessing them. It looks like this is my only picture option till I get back into the States, so I hope you like the Kodak method! haha... See ya´ll later!

11.09.2005

More pics

So, I can´t fix that other post for some reason, but here are some more pics:

ASODECAH:
http://www.kodakgallery.com/I.jsp?c=w8mm1o5.z7tgauh&x=0&y=-og34iw

Hot Springs:
http://www.kodakgallery.com/I.jsp?c=w8mm1o5.mi52fs9&x=0&y=y8x4mt


Enjoy!!

11.08.2005

11.07.2005

Family Pics

So... I don´t have the mental capacity to respond to the Iraq posts, but I LOOOVE watching the discussion. On to less thoughtful topics.... (just for now)

My family always has SOMEONE over on Sundays for lunch or dinner of cafecito, whether it be family or friends or neighbors... it´s really fun. I think I want to do that in my house when I get older - just always have people over. It´s really cool! Anyways, last time we had Byron (my brother) and his kids over, so I took some pics... He´s super nice and works with computers, so he´s super smart! It was good to chill with him a little bit...

This is my papa and Byron...


This is my sister, Kalia and my niece, Ximena, whom you´ve already seen... One night we were eating yummy flan that my mama made - it basically tasted like vanilla pudding... yummm


These are my three nieces/nephew...Amanda, Ximena and Jonathon... they´re so cute!!!


This is a pic of my padres yesterday morning... I did my mama´s eye makeup!


I still love my familia very much and I can´t believe I´m leaving Costa Rica in 26 days!!! So little time left here...

11.04.2005

Iraq, continued...

Okay, so... yeah, I know this is a heated topic, but I don´t want to run away from heated topics anymore just so I can be comfortable. First of all, I appreciate your responses... Secondly, I think sharing different ideas is great. We can all learn a lot from each other if we help each other see our points of view in the spirit of learning and without insult. AHEM.

Just so everyone knows, Dave Bourgeouis is an incredible teacher of mine that has worked his ass off trying to get me to be able to come to Costa Rica and have this experience. He is a very special person who has contributed to a lot of my learning and who takes a real delight in investing in each of his students. What other professors do you know that take the time to read their students´blogs and let them know that they´re praying for them and keeping up on their learning? I expect only respect for that amount of effort.

That said, the script was from a presentation that some of the students did in my class after researching for 6 weeks on the topic. There were 6 students who researched everything from if the war in Iraq was acceptable to how it compared to past wars (such as wars in South/Central America).

I don´t think that any larger picture should involve torture of other human beings. From a Christian perspective, how is this ushering in God´s Kingdom? If that´s what Jesus´message is all about (which, I assure you, it is), there seems to be very little justification for this war, and absolutely none for the torture. Three of my friends right now are in the marines and Navy, one directly in Iraq. I still love them for who they are but do not support what they are fighting for. That´s like many things in life. Dan falls under that category as well. Just because Dan isn´t capable of such torture, doesn´t mean what he´s fighting for is right.

The U.S. only has a reputation for helping others according to people in the U.S. and few others who have not been educated in history. Please do not be blinded into thinking, as your article said, that "we Americans are relatively alone because from our founding we have believed that we have a mission to better the world. And for this we are hated."

We are hated because our government hypocritically puts up this face of hospitality, when they are most definitely concerned for their own interests. Governments do not do anything that will not benefit them in the long run. Do you not find it a little "sketchy" that Bush owns an oil firm? Do you also not find it a little interesting that the 9/11 attacks were ONLY against the World Trade Center (rich elite), the Pentagon (U.S. military), and possibly the White House (U.S. Government)? This does not mean that all U.S. citizens are bad, but I encourage you to research their patterns throughout the world, concerning their OBSESSION with capatilism and "democracy" that has led them to starve citizens to submission (Nicaragua). Our "new kind of enemy" is probably one of the fairest enemies I´ve seen. They don´t attack common citizens - they attack the rich, the militaristic and the oppressive government who has tried to impose their ways on them for decades.

I encourage everyone to continue to research. I´m not done - this is barely a beginning. I am not anti-U.S. and I am not anti-military. However, I am anti-corruption and I think there´s room for questioning a government who conserves 60% of the worlds´wealth in it´s own country, and then claims that the only reason there´s poverty is other peoples´faults...

Bob, I can´t wait to see you at Christmas and talk more with you about your time and your thoughts on military and war. I think I miss you more than I have ever in my life just because I´m so anxious to hear what your thoughts are on the things I´m learning. (And Carol´s, by the way... where´d she go?)

Professor B, I would ask the same question as Bob - what bigger picture justifies that torture? I don´t feel I understood your point...

I can´t tell you all how much I appreciate your contributions... please keep posting... we´re all just helping each other figure out life, anyways, right? No one has it figured out yet, especially me. Thanks for doing that...

11.01.2005

Finally!!!!

Here are all of my Nicaragua pictures... just click on this link:

http://www.kodakgallery.com/I.jsp?c=w8mm1o5.149impcx&x=0&y=-84hhj0

and it will take you to a page showing the first picture of my album. It will try to get you to sign up, but just click on my face and you can see the album. Yay for Chrystal's discovery!!

I'll still post pictures from time to time on my blog, but anything en masse will go here... Enjoy!!!

Much love! (and relief!)

Iraq

So... I can apparently only do a few pics at a time... very weird! Anyways, here´s a presentation on the war in Iraq... I thought it was pretty powerful... thoughts?

Script

DISCLAIMER
Do NOT read the following unless you think you
can handle brutal, graphic descriptions of the war in Iraq.


Nathan, the Prophet: There were two men in a certain town, one rich and one poor. The rich man had a very large number of sheep and cattle, but the poor man had nothing except for one little ewe lamb he had bought. He raised it, and it grew up with him and his children. It shared his food, drank from his cup and even slept in his arms. It was like a daughter to him.

“It is time the American people realized that in the Domino Theory we are the last domino.” –Ronald Reagan

“We are not a young people with an innocent record and a scanty inheritance. We have engrossed to ourselves…an altogether disproportionate share of the wealth and traffic of the world. We have got all we want in territory, and our claim to be left in the unmolested enjoyment of vast and splendid possessions mainly acquired by violence, largely maintained by force, often seems less reasonable to others than to us.” –Winston Churchill

“The sanctions in Iraq combined with the destruction of infrastructure resulted in the early death of more than 500,000 children between 1991 and 1998.”

“In the year 2000, as a further result of U.S. sanctions, 800,000 Iraqi children were chronically malnourished.”

“The United States is a superpower politically, militarily and economically without a rival.” –Irene Khan executive director of Amnesty International.

“We’re an autonomous nation. We do these things because we can.” –Brian Simmons

“The United States is King Kong.” –Helio Gallardo

Nathan: Now a traveller came to the rich man, but the rich man refrained from taking one of his own sheep or cattle to prepare a meal for the traveller who had come to him.

“Oil and revenge are not valid reasons to go to war.” –Sid Millson

“The U.S. invasion of Iraq was not instigated by weapons of mass or destruction or the liberation of the Iraqi people.”

“The Reagan administration battled for the control of all Central America through the war in El Salvador.”

“Without doubt American interests, reflected in their training and arming of the El Salvadoran military were inextricably linked to the Salvadoran conflict.” –John Dickson

Whit Witteman, U.S. Embassy worker, claims that the location of U.S. prison camps on foreign soil gives the United States the legal flexibility they are looking for.

“Is there any man, is there any woman, let me say any child here that does not know that the seed of war in the modern world is industrial and commercial rivalry.” –Woodrow Wilson

“The privatization of Iraq’s economy, the opening of Iraq to foreign, particularly the U.S., investments and the political importance of the companies benefiting from the US reconstruction program in Iraq have created a strong vested interest in continued US domination.” –Frank Brodhead

Nathan: Instead, he took the ewe lamb that belonged to the poor man and prepared it for the one who had come to him

“The U.S. sponsored counter-insurgency campaigns work to pacify political opposition, whether proven or otherwise. Consider the words of Major General Muhammad Abdallah al-Shahwan of Iraq’s intelligence service: “The Sunni population is paying no price for the support it is giving terrorists. From their point of view, it is cost-free. We have to change that equation.”

“An excerpt from a report written by Major General Antonio M. Taguba listing human rights violations which occurred in Abu Gharaib including the following:

Breaking chemical lights and pouring the phosphoric liquid on detainees,

Pouring cold water on naked detainees,

Beating detainees with a broom handle and a chair

Threatening male detainees with rape

allowing a military police guard to stitch the wound of a detainee who was injured after being slammed against the wall in his cell.

Sodomizing a detainee with a chemical light

Using military working dogs to frighten and intimidate detainees with threats of attack and in one instance actually biting a detainee.”

“Rural women suspected of guerrilla sympathies in Guatemala were raped before execution. Children were thrown into burning homes. They are thrown into the air and speared with bayonets. We heard many, many reports of children being picked up by the ankles and swung against poles so their heads are destroyed.”

“People are not just killed by the death squads in El Salvador- they are decapitated and then their heads are placed on pikes and used to dot the landscape. Men are not just disembowelled by the Salvadoran Treasury Police; their severed genitalia are stuffed into their mouths. Salvadoran women are not just raped by the National Guard; their wombs are cut from their bodies and used to cover their faces. It is not enough to kill children; they are dragged over barbed wire until the flesh fall from their bones, while parents are forced to watch.”

“I questioned some of the things I saw…Such things as leaving inmates in their cells with no clothes or in female underpants, handcuffing them to the door of their cell- and the answer I got was: “this is how the military intelligence wants it done.”…Military Intelligence has also instructed us to place a prisoner in an isolation cell with little or no clothes, no toilet or running water, no ventilation or window, for as much as three days.” -Staff sergeant Ivan L. Frederick.

“On May 5, 2005, 14 bodies of young men were discovered near the Iraqi town of Kara-wa-Atash. The were blind-folded, hand-cuffed and bore signs of torture. Investigations later proved that these men were not terrorists, but rather farmers en route to the local market when they were captured for questioning.”

“Iraqi Special Police, trained and funded by the CIA since October 2004 have raided numbers of mosques, shops, markets and homes, arresting and carrying away civilians who are never seen again.”

“Despite overwhelming evidence that U.S.-sponsored Special Forces were responsible for 1000s of innocent deaths, the Reagan administration continually denied any extra-judicial killings. In fact, in a January 1986 report regarding in El Salvador the government contended that Salvadoran troops involved in counter-insurgency campaigns were careful to avoid endangering civilians. They broadcast warnings to non-combatants to remove themselves from the scene of fighting and avoided firing where civilians might be located. But what the report failed to mention is that prior to counter-insurgency actions 10,000 Salvadorans lived in an area 17 miles north of San Salvador. By the end of the war, however, only 1000 remained. The rest were victims of bombings, assassination, torture, kidnappings and repopulation projects.

King David (anger): As surely as the Lord lives, the man who did this deserves to die!

“The UN Charter outlaws the use of force with only two exceptions: individual or collective self-defence in response to an armed attack and action authorized by the Security Council as a collective response to a threat to the peace, breech of the peace or active aggression.”

“In Guatemala despite tens of thousands of civilian deaths and now-corroborated accounts of massacres and genocide not one single senior military officer in Central America was given any significant punishment for the bloodshed. Nor did any U.S. officials pay even a political price.” –John Parry

“According to the U.S. Department of State, the U.S. seeks to hold other governments accountable to promote the greater respect for human rights, including freedom from torture and strengthen the institutional capacity of the Office of the UN High Commissioner for Human Rights and the UN commission on Human Rights.”

“Instead the U.S. government has gone to great lengths to restrict the application of the Geneva Conventions and to “redefine” torture. It has sought to justify the use of coercive interrogation techniques, the practice of holding “ghost detainees” and the rendering or handing over of prisoners to third world countries known to practice torture.” – Irene Khan

“U.S. Aid has tended to flow disproportionately to Latin American governments which torture their citizens and to the violators of human rights. Why? Because (they) rely on force to keep impoverished domestic populations inline while western corporations reap maximized profits.”

David: He must pay for that lamb four times over, because he did such a thing and had no
pity.
Nathan: YOU ARE THAT MAN.


“We must continually say no to violence and yes to peace.” – Oscar Romero

“Be converted. You can not find God on the path of torture. God is found on the way of justice, conversion and truth.” –Oscar Romero

“War is a defeat for humanity.” –Pope John Paul II

“A sovereign power demands allegiance, and that power does not reside in the Oval Office.” –Theodore McDowell

“Any human order to kill must be subordinate to the law of God which says “Thou shalt not kill.” No soldier is obliged to obey an order contrary to the law of God. No one has to obey an immoral law. It is high time you recovered your consciences and obeyed your consciences rather than a sinful order…in the name of God, in the name of the suffering people whose cries rise to Heaven more loudly each day, I implore you, I beg you, I order you – in the name of God, stop the repression.” –Oscar Romero

Pictures

So... I´m attempting to get some pics up... here´s a few!

This was my grandpa in Nicaragua with his birdie...


This was a perfect epitome of "tranquila" in Nicaragua... everyone´s always so relaxed!


This is a picture of the "pulperia" (kinda like a seven-eleven) that my Nicaraguan family owned...


This is part of the market where a massive amount of cheese was! It was crazy - Nicaraguans LOVE cheese - especially fried cheese!


This is a pic of my little niece, Kenia holding her "pajarito"